My Life Being Renewed: June 2013

Dreams to Reality!!

June 23, 2013







Well, we finally did it- our house is officially SOLD!!!  Friday we met for the house closing and the new buyer was so excited, she literally had her vehicle packed with things- ready to move in. She was a really nice single Mom so it seemed like such a perfect fit- I am just so relieved to have one more thing off our plate- it was not easy maintaining another house for 2 years while we lived 1 hour away- owning a home is alot of maintenance! On Saturday, we finalized moving our bank account over to our new bank in Thomasville- it is so nice having everything in one place now- no more driving back and forth- I don't want to even talk about how much money we have spent on gas the past few months..

So, now we can move on to the next chapter of our lives which is building our dream home! We have already ordered our new home plans- my husband found this amazing Southern Living Home Plan and he has been working on it so we can have it ready for bidding for different contractors- it is also a blessing that he comes from a Engineering background, so he knows about all of the permits, codes, etc. Personally, I am most excited for finally having a walk in closet and also an open floor plan- in our other house, I was always in the kitchen cooking while everyone was in the living room hanging out, so it will be awesome to be able cook and socialize.

Next week, we should have our underground power pole and well installed, then we will be ready to start the foundation- it all seems so surreal!!

I should back up and tell you the story of what happened about two months before we had a bite on the house...I had a dream that my husbands father who passed away over two years ago, came down from heaven, in the dream he came over and hugged my husband and I tight and told us how much he loved us and was proud of us. In the dream he had plans for us to do something fun as a family that day, and my husband and I told him that we couldn't go because we had to go and mow the grass at our old house because we needed it to look good for the buyers. This was the part of the dream that stood out to me..he looked at us and said, "You don't need to worry about mowing the grass at the old house anymore, let's go and have fun today." Essentially, he was telling us that we would have to worry about it no more..when I woke up, I knew that the dream was from God and I knew exactly what it meant- our house was going to sell and we wouldn't have to continue the upkeep on it. I told at least half a dozen people about the dream and I told them that our house would be selling soon, that I knew it, God had showed me. There was no way that I was letting go of that dream- for the entire two months, I held onto it and kept repeating it and claiming what God had showed me. Sure enough 8 weeks or so later, we get a call (the same day that we mowed the grass at the old house for the LAST time and I called the realtor to put more flyers in the box) back from our realtor about a lady that is interested in our house. She has three houses in mind, but really likes ours- in the end she decides that she wants to make an offer on our house and from that point forward everything fell right into place.

Talk about a Faith builder!! This is not the first time that God has given me dreams- he also gave me a dream about our land and that me and some family were standing there looking at house plans and it is coming to past!! These are two things that I prayed and fasted for years ago and they are just now coming to fruition- it is just so amazing to watch. And those are only a couple of things- I have had several more things come to fruition that I prayed for years ago. So, I want to encourage you that if you have something that you are praying for, never stop praying or believing that God can make it happen!!


What have you been praying for that you want to see come to fruition?


At the end of my rope...

June 19, 2013



{I adore Kari Jobe- if you get time, listen to more of her songs and teachings on YouTube}
 My favorite part of this song is at the very end, where she sings "I know that you are for me, I know that you will never forsake me in my weakness" that part hits home because this is the weakest that I have ever felt in my life-lately I feel all alone}. But I have learned at my lowest and weakest points in my life is when God reaches down and picks me up and does his best work..I know that he hasn't forgotten about me..


Honestly, I have been putting off writing this blog post. Most of the people that know me- know that I don't like to share much about myself- when I go through difficult times, I tend to keep it to myself and just pray to God about it. I don't know what it is about me, but I've never liked talking about my problems much- it just always comes off as complaining and I have never wanted to be seen as negative or the girl that always complains and is burdensome to others, so instead I bottle everything inside and keep things to myself.


But lately... I have been going through a lot, like so much that it's beyond my stress level- it doesn't take much for me to break down crying these days (and I do sometimes and I hide it from everyone) but mostly I get on my knees and pray. We have a lot already going on with our house we are selling, trying to build a new house and working full time jobs- but the most stressful part of it all is what our dog, Roscoe is going through- we took him to the vet as a last resort to have blood work done to see if he was deficient in anything and the Dr. came back with bad news saying that there was nothing that they could do, that he was in good health except for the fact that he can't walk anymore and they can't do anything about that. He hasn't gotten any better, it's extremely sad to watch him want to play and not be able to, to have to hold him up to go to the bathroom- when he tries to go on his own he falls on his face and can't even push himself back up to get up. He can't do anything on his own- he has different barks for everything that he wants- there is "I am thirsty" bark, the "I need to go to the bathroom" bark, the "I want a treat" bark, the "I want loving bark" and the "I am hungry" bark- so basically all day long he is barking and whining and sometimes it's stressful trying to figure out what he wants. I thought we had found a solution with the crib that my friend gave to me, but I came home one day to find Roscoe had gotten his head stuck between the slats and had to chew his way out- it was so terrible and made me feel so guilty. His little head had gotten cut and hair had worn off from him trying to get out for who knows how long- so now the crib is no more.


It literally breaks my heart in two... there is nothing that I can do but sit back and pray and give it over to God..my heart is so broken, lately I have been so sad even with all of the good things going on with our house selling and starting to build a new one- Roscoe is like my child and I can't imagine life without him..at this point things are bittersweet for me and I can't focus on the happy things when I think,"What if we start our next chapter without Roscoe? and for me that is just too devastating to think about....I don't want to imagine a life without him...


I am extremely stressed out all of the time and it's starting to show in my work, I can't think straight half of the time, my eyes are constantly bloodshot no matter how many eye drops that I use..between Roscoe keeping me up all night and me crying you can imagine.. I don't go anywhere anymore, I don't see family or friends or go do anything fun- after I get home from work, the rest of the time I am always with Roscoe.


Just to give you an idea of what we typically go through with Roscoe. The other day I just wanted to take a shower after moving things out of our old house- I put Roscoe on the bathroom floor and hop in for a quick shower and he just pees everywhere- I only had one towel so I had to use it to clean the pee on the floor and yell for my husband to grab two more towels so I can give Roscoe a bath and have a towel for myself as well. After I had taken him a bath and dried him off and put him back on the floor while I finished showering, then he started barking constantly and I had to have my husband come and get him- every few minutes he is upset or wanting something. That is how my life has been for 3 months now. I eat horribly trying to take care of Roscoe - I just don't have time to cook anymore- and I gave up working out when Roscoe first got sick because I just don't know how much time that I will have to spend with him..I just don't know what to do anymore, I've given up my whole life for 3 months to dedicate my time to Roscoe and I've reached the end of my rope...all I can do now is pray and hope for a miracle..


I am hoping that this is one of God's ways of using me to witness to other people and for him get the Glory from it..I never give up hope and I know that God can heal Roscoe's legs so that he can walk again. The main reason that I truly wanted to blog about this, is that I really want to come back here and be able to tell you all about how God healed Roscoe.


If anyone is actually reading this, please take the time to say a prayer for me..I could use all of the prayers that I can get right now..



One Step at the Time...

June 14, 2013


Hey guys, I am extremely excited for this weekend! Mostly, because we are moving the last few items out of our old house- our closing date is next Friday, then we can officially move on and start a new chapter! Today, we are opening up a new bank account and meet with the technician to finish up the paperwork to put in a power pole so we can get ready to have the well installed- I am so happy to be getting some things done this weekend. Most of our weekend will be work, except for Sunday, we are going to hang out with my husband's nephew and his Mom, so that should be fun. Hope you all have a great weekend!!

Taste of Thomasville Food Tour- Photo Overload!!

June 8, 2013

For those of you who don't know, I grew up in Thomasville, Georgia but my parents moved when I was little and later I met my husband and we moved to a different city to go to College and so that my husband could work at his Father's Engineering Firm. But after 20-something years, I am finally back in my hometown of Thomasville! It has been my dream to move back for a very long time and things in our life changed to where that became the plan.
 
 
Since I moved at such a young age, a lot of things have changed in my hometown. So the husband and I finally took a break away to go on the Taste of Thomasville Food Tour- in our very own hometown- We had such a wonderful time meeting some new people, savoring wonderful food and learning all about our town's history! If you ever visit Thomasville, Georgia you should definitely go on this tour- Debra, our tour guide was amazing! 
 
 

 













Shrimp and Grits at Jonah's






Fried Green Tomatoes, Crab cakes & Greek Salad at George and Louie's
 












Moon Spin Pizza (the hubby & I get the Calzone here usually once per week) I can walk there from my office.

 
The Big Oak in Thomasville





 
Lucy & Leo's Cupcakes {They were on the show "Cupcake Wars and won 2nd Place} at the Bookshelf



Hope you enjoyed the Tour!! Have a wonderful weekend everyone!