My Life Being Renewed: On the brink of giving up..

On the brink of giving up..

January 23, 2013






I'm that girl who is always so strong, with a smile on my face even when I am dying inside. I have been so strong the past four months with the husband and I both not having jobs and waiting on our house to sell while the bills keep adding up. Everyday I just keep praying and believing that GOD has a plan for us, I stay positive and always try and find the small things to be thankful for.


Some days though it's not easy..I have difficult days where I find myself depressed and losing hope. We put in Resume after Resume, we have the job experience, the education- so why?? Yesterday was one of those days, I was sad, angry and just didn't understand why things were turning out this way and honestly I just gave up..I cried and then I got on my knees and prayed to GOD to please help us. I cried some more then I finally drifted off to sleep.


The next morning, I just assumed it would be just another day of applying for jobs, making calls, etc. But the hubby comes up to me with his phone and shows me an email that says "You fit the job qualifications, please email your resume and cover letter as soon as possible"- I felt a surge of hope..that's all I needed was just a little bit of hope to keep me going. I'm not sure if my husband will be hired for this job, but I have full faith, believing that if it is the job for him, then GOD already has it all worked out.


It was when I was at the end of my rope telling God that I couldn't do it anymore and I was out of strength and faith and I needed his help and his strength to hold me up. I feel like this was his way of telling me to just lean on him and he would take care of everything..."The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusted in him, and I am helped: therefore my heart greatly rejoiceth; and with my song will I praise him"


Have you ever lost hope in something and given up?


17 comments:

  1. I think we all feel like giving up sometimes...

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  2. We all feel these feelings at times...it's human nature. It's impossible to remain optimistic 100% of the time, but what IS possible is to try our best to remain that way as much as we can...and you most definitely sound as if you're doing so. When you and your husband do land jobs (and rest assured, you will), you'll be glad that you never gave up :)

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    1. Keith, thank you for the encouraging words- you are right, I will be happy that I didn't give up.

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  3. Praying for you and your husband! Like you said, everything will work out for the Lord's glory and it will be his timing, not our own.

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    1. thank you Jessi, I so appreciate the prayers! I do believe it will all work out to his glory and that he has the best in mind for us!

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  4. I am currently going through a trial where I am at the brink of giving up too. It's a sibling that has turned away from the Lord. It's been 3 years of praying & waiting. Your faith is so inspiring to me, thank you

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    1. Kelley, that would be difficult especially with a sibling you are such an awesome sister to be praying over them. I am glad that I inspired you, but you story has inspired me as well- I need to pray for my siblings more- there are several of them that don't have God in their lives.

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  5. good luck with everything! that is so so tough and i hope you guys get through it! a couple years ago, i was applying to millions of jobs and felt so hopeless and it finally worked out. i have faith that everything will work out for you two - just stay positive and have faith!!
    -- jackiejade.blogspot.com

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    1. Thanks Jackie- that is so inspiring to hear that you went through the same thing and everything worked out!

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  6. Oh Melinda, I will be praying for you and your husband. God has the perfect jobs lined up for you, just hopefully they will come along soon! I am going through something similar where I have been trying to be patient with God for so long that I am feeling like I don't know if I can go any further. I've reached the point of giving up but God renews just the teensiest bit of hope, exactly when I need it most.

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    1. Kristin, I will be praying for you too..I know it is not easy when you pray and wait so long- he will work everything out for you too- I believe it! :)

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  7. Melinda darling, I stand together with you and call those things which are not as though they were! Weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning! Thanks for sharing with us. Together we can move mountains!!! xoxo

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    1. Thank you for that prayer- so sweet!! I really appreciate it- I believe that rejoicing will come soon-when it happens, I will be blogging all about it!!

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  8. I saw you on LC forum so I came to see your blog, let me tell you that you´ve done a great job with it, please come visit and if you like it it would be great if we could follow each other here or socials, what do you think? To support each other… let me know ok!
    Kisses
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  9. Melinda we are so alike! Even when I'm hurting deeply inside....I put on a happy face and make it seem like everything is alright...when really it isn't. I hear you and understand you. Keep the faith girl. God is good and all will be well. I promise. There is a light at the end of tunnel. We're all here for you and want the best for you and your husband!

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    1. Rita, we do seem to have so much in common- I feel like I have known you forever! I don't know why we have to put on that happy face when we are hurting inside- maybe we just don't want to seem weak or we want everyone to be happy and we don't want to be a burden to others- who knows..

      This whole blogging about my feelings is out of my comfort zone, but I wanted to use this blog as a journal so I am putting it all out there. Thank you so much for being there for me- you are such a sweetheart!

      xoxo~Melinda

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