I'm that girl who is always so strong, with a smile on my face even when I am dying inside. I have been so strong the past four months with the husband and I both not having jobs and waiting on our house to sell while the bills keep adding up. Everyday I just keep praying and believing that GOD has a plan for us, I stay positive and always try and find the small things to be thankful for.
Some days though it's not easy..I have difficult days where I find myself depressed and losing hope. We put in Resume after Resume, we have the job experience, the education- so why?? Yesterday was one of those days, I was sad, angry and just didn't understand why things were turning out this way and honestly I just gave up..I cried and then I got on my knees and prayed to GOD to please help us. I cried some more then I finally drifted off to sleep.
The next morning, I just assumed it would be just another day of applying for jobs, making calls, etc. But the hubby comes up to me with his phone and shows me an email that says "You fit the job qualifications, please email your resume and cover letter as soon as possible"- I felt a surge of hope..that's all I needed was just a little bit of hope to keep me going. I'm not sure if my husband will be hired for this job, but I have full faith, believing that if it is the job for him, then GOD already has it all worked out.
It was when I was at the end of my rope telling God that I couldn't do it anymore and I was out of strength and faith and I needed his help and his strength to hold me up. I feel like this was his way of telling me to just lean on him and he would take care of everything..."The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusted in him, and I am helped: therefore my heart greatly rejoiceth; and with my song will I praise him"
Have you ever lost hope in something and given up?